it's been awhile...

well, it's been a while... this could be a rather long long post. orrrr, i could split it up in to several posts. hmm. what to do what to do. as devon pointed out just this morning, i am no longer allowed to ignore my blog. well folks, i've been ignoring it mostly because i haven't had the energy or the heart to do it. last weekend started off absolutely fabulously and ended as one of the worst weekends in history. this past week was rather boring... until friday when i got to be an f1 race car driver for the day. and then i visited a new hair salon and spent the day in the hamptons. the weekend flew by, but it was just what i needed. and now, it's off to another boring week here in the office. and now... let me expand on all those topics... i guess this will be one rather long post. there will be plenty of pictures... don't worry... i just have to upload them. as you read, you'll understand why the pics are still forthcoming and why i haven't been too anxious to upload them...

Last Weekend.



on friday, the 17th, i flew to chicago o'hare and met up with scott. we were in town for my high school friend, laura's wedding. but we decided to make a weekend of it and stay in chicago for friday night. devon and patrick graciously agreed to play host and let us stay with them in their really great place. devon set up a wonderful dinner for scott and me, matt and elizabeth, and patrick and devon at aria. we had our own little area for dinner and at one point it felt like we were there all by ourselves in the restaurant. the food was delicious! then we went to a few more bars - one being called chaise lounge. i don't remember the other two. somewhere along the way i really wanted water, but kept getting handed beers to drink. ok... so i did. drink the beers. and not water.




Sat, the 18th. Day of the wedding.

devon and i went to brunch with my friend alice from high school. i had lost touch with alice for almost 10 years and we just reconnected over myspace. i was ecstatic because we were super good friends in high school and i always wondered about her. so we met for bruch at this delicious place. i can't remember the name, but i had huckleberry pancakes!! YUM!!!! while the girls were brunching, the boys were doing who knows what. but they went and got their own food.

after brunch, scott and i left for our drive to culver (the town and name of my high school in IN). it took us after two and a half hours, but we finally made it. scott kept wondering where in the hell i was taking him, but i kept telling him to trust me and that it was beautiful where we were going. but after passing by many many rednecks with confederate flags and a lot of cornfields, i don't think he believed me that culver really was in fact a little oasis on the lake in the middle of indiana. we got to the bed and breakfast where we were staying and thought we were doing great on time. HOWEVER, culver is on eastern time not central like chicago and we didnt factor that in. the b&b owner was all, doesn't the wedding start in 20 mins at 6?? WHAT!?!?!?!?! holy shit, i have never moved faster in my life. i was ready in about 2.2 seconds and it took scott maybe 4.2 seconds, but we rushed out the door and i've got to say, we looked pretty damn good for having gotten ready so quickly. we even made it to the church on time!! thank god. i was rather nervous and stressed out about that one... the ceremony was held on campus in our church which has beautiful stained glass and is gorgeous. the ceremony was lovely and so nice and then the reception was amazing. unfortunately it was raining, but it wasn't too terrible. i got to see a few people i knew: katy henderson who went to culver with me and becky rueth who were both in the wedding. their bridesmaids dresses were so pretty! laura looked absolutely stunning in her wedding dress. the tent was gorgeous - you'd never know 2 tornados blew threw earlier in the week and the whole tent had landed in the lake and had to be re-set up - what a nightmare... the food was delicious and they had a wonderful band playing all kinds of fun dancing music. scott and i had what i thought was a blast dancing to the band and enjoying the wedding. after the wedding, i took scott on a late night tour of the campus where i went to high school. some things have changed other things are exactly the same. it is such a beautiful place with so many great memories. then we drove home and the weekend took a dramatic turn. scott decided he could no longer do the long distance thing. yup. pretty much ripped my heart out that night after what i thought was an amazing weekend (and only 2 weeks after an amazing time in the dominican). so i was extremely hurt (obviously) and didn't sleep at all that night. finally the sun came up enough that it was acceptable for me to get up and go for a walk. the air was cold and it was still drizzly, but i needed fresh air. so i went for a walk thru culver. and then, we had to drive back to chicago. it was the worst drive ever. scary hard rain and silence. i didn't know what to say and he said nothing the entire way. not even the radio was on. well, we get back to devon's and here's where the story just gets way too long and way too personal to tell over a blog... let's just say my heart is broken and that it had been 5 long years since i let anyone in and just as i do... it gets broken yet again... thought things were different and i was completely blindslided... but the weekend continues to get better. b/c of the aforementioned rain, my flight was delayed. and delayed. i was supposed to leave at 7pm. it didn't leave til well after 1am. i didn't get home til 4:30AM. i didn't go to work.